Notes from My Journal
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To Om or not to Om, that is the (or was my) question…
Note: I am not posting this to bash on anyone or to wrong or talk down on anyone or this community I talk about, but I am only sharing my experience that I personally had, and I wish the community and people well in there process and journey in life and honor it perfect as it is for those who walk that path, I trust it serves them well and may even serve you the ready of this post if its where your at in life and calls to you, and if not there maybe another option for you below.
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(Journal Disclaimer: This is past writings from my personal journaling that I am sharing with you here on my blog, so I may or may not be in the same place/space as I was back then when I wrote it and most likely have done lots of deep healing and growth from then till present day.
I share to offer inspiration for your own journeys as well as to witness the healing, growth and progress within myself, also to be seen, heard, felt and loved in my openness and vulnerability, as well as practicing improvements in my writing abilities… Thank you for your love and support.)
~ My Journaling Notes from Sunday 12/29/2013
Recently I was asked by a woman if I was looking for OMs…
How would I know if I was looking for OMs?
What space would I need to be in to be looking for OMs?
Well I am bad with time frame, but I think its been about a year to a year and a half from my separation/divorce with my ex wife, 3 years married and 6 years in relationship.
Shortly after that brake up I was invited by a friend of mine to attend for her first time also, what’s called by the OM Community (or Orgasmic Meditation) a TurnOn (small free intro) event.
Now to each there own, but for me, it was interesting and I feel I was a bit seduced by the community, tricky and pushy sales tactics, into going to a few more of their events and workshops.
Long story short I was not feeling it and even backed out of a event I paid for with a non refundable policy so I donated the money I invested into it to someone anyone else that resonated with the work more at the time.
Timing for me just was not right, 5 to 10 years back for me would have been perfect.
Well a few nights ago I got a random sales call by one of the OM guys that did what I feel was a hard sale with fear of loss tactics (I have been a marketer for years so I look for that stuff) of a good deal to save a few hundred dollars, so once again I gave (and take responsibility for my actions) them more money to the same workshop that I backed out of once before, The Ignited Man 3 day workshop.
Now I am a Personal Growth Junkie and am happy to face my fears, but as the next day went by I kept pondering what did I get myself into again?
With the savings it was not a lot of money but still I was not feeling it, so I sent a text to the guy that sold me this time on the workshop and said; Hey where would I go to find out more about the ignited man workshop and how would I know if its right for me or not?
And all he really sent me was to links, one to a real short video:
…and a link to a short page on there website.
That gave me almost nothing, so I sent a message to a friend/mentor on Facebook and asked him if he new of the OM Community and if he had any feedback on the energy of the work or not…
also I said; I want to keep myself in alignment the best I can with the work I’m doing with you guys. I think partly I’m looking into the OM community just for community connection although I’ve had feelings of not feeling safe to be as VULNERABLE as I’d like to around them or the container’s not as sacred as I’m desiring…
So I’m not sure if their practice is in enough alignment with my journey around sex and sexuality at this stage in my life, but maybe it would be good for me.
And my friend/mentor said to me;
Close your eyes, take a few deep breaths and connect with that incredibly pure place in your heart that longs for union in love with the feminine – let this frequency percolate in you for a few minutes so you can really recognize it.
Now feel into the OM energy – and see what this feels like.
Don’t think about it, just feel it.
And let me know what you feel.
This is a very important exercise for you.
There is no right or wrong by the way, just an exercise in discernment …
So I did that process and this is what I felt:
My longing for union in love with the feminine, feels pure, soft, loving, clean, healing, peaceful, Divine, safe, high vibrational frequency, destiny, whole and complete, joyful, nurturing, honoring, and beautiful.
Now feeling into the OM energy feels like; deceitful, lustful, covert, lower vibrational frequency, exciting, manipulating, seducing, seductive, dark shadows, unsafe, shallow, trickster, playful, interesting, playful dark magic, and fear.
(Note: What my friend/mentor shared with me next was beautify and I love it and deeply resonate with it so maybe he can share it in the comments below. as I don’t feel I would do it justice to put it in my own words)
But I will give it a shot!
He said, in my own words; yes I am right on the money, and sex without love is not that path that I truly want to be on, without a heart to heart deep soul connection sex is just a fix that we feed our egos on and will not move us forward into the next evolutionary path that our hearts dream of, that our souls are meant for and our God given birthright to live now with love, pure lovemaking with our beloved in Divine Union.
And back to the original question if I am looking for OMs, no I am not. Well maybe the shadow me is, but not the deeper I AM.
So I sent in a email and requested a full refund and backed out of the workshop once again.
I look at some of the people on fb that are in the OM Community and I feel a deep sadness for them, a blind lost.
A perfection and honoring for there own path and life journey, and for me even a old me self that wants to slid in there and play with the darkness because my ego does not want to let go BUT I am destined for divine union and ‘Love Is A Leap’ so I am jumping into the unknown because I know my twin soul is waiting for me now.
Now I have more clarity and discernment to help me move through more of my dark shadows and cold desires.
Thank you Beloved friends of my community for your love and support. Thank you for your guidance and love. Thank you for your mentorship and friendship. You all mean a great deal to me.
To see if OMing is right for you then Google it and check it out.
And if you are not feeling the OM community and want to drop deeper into your own Love & Innocence <— go there!
Many Blessings on your perfect path in life,
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