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Jan 02

LIST of Fears and Doubts About Having a Soulmate Relationship

By Jeremy Creager | Notes from My Journal

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(Journal Disclaimer: This is past writings from my personal journaling that I am sharing with you here on my blog, so I may or may not be in the same place/space as I was back then when I wrote it and most likely have done lots of deep healing and growth from then till present day.

I share to offer inspiration for your own journeys as well as to witness the healing, growth and progress within myself, also to be seen, heard, felt and loved in my openness and vulnerability, as well as practicing improvements in my writing abilities… Thank you for your love and support.)

 

~ My Journaling Notes from Sunday 2/11/2014

LIST of Fears and Doubts about having a Soulmate Relationship:

that I am not ready.

that I am not worthy.

that I am not good enough.

that I have to much personal growth work to still do on myself.

that I don’t know what I am looking for.

that I won’t recognize her.

that I will fuck it up.

that true love is not real.

that unconditional love can’t really be.

that I still have to much anger from my last relationship(’s).

that I will hope its the one but not be sure and think it is when it is not.

that I won’t have enough money to support us.

that I will think other women are hotter, sexier and more attractive physically.

that I will hurt her feelings.

that I have deep seeded dark sexual shadows.

that I can’t trust myself or her.

that I am to short, going bald and getting fat.

that I will be damned if I do and damned if I don’t.

that a soulmate relationship will never come.

or that I will have to wait until I am old until I meet her.

that I have to master self discipline around my sexual desires before I meet her.

that she will cheat on me or I on her.

that I don’t have a house of my own or that I don’t have my own place to share with her.

that I don’t deserve her love.

that there is to much space in between the NOW and the time of reconnecting in this life.

that I don’t know the space in which I will find her now.

that I am to weak and not strong enough for her.

that I don’t fully love myself yet enough to give her the love she deserves.

that I have not found my vocation yet and so I won’t know how or where to lead/or journey with her in life.

that she is not ready for me yet.

that the cancer male side of me is to moody for her.

that I am not perfect.

that my ego, my shadows and my flaws will fuck shit up.

that I don’t have good credit and I am in debt.

that I don’t know what a soulmate relationship should/would look like.

that I can’t stop looking for her instead of just being and letting her come to me in Divine timing.

that others will be be jealous and we will have haters because of our love.

that I have not yet learned enough lessons about love, life, myself, women and relationships.

that I am, and its all that I can be, but it will never be enough.

And that my fears and doubts are endless and can go on and on.

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Note: (I know that “Fear” is False Evidence Appearing Real) and so all of the above is not true, yet at some level feels real.

Thanks for reading my post :) if you LIKE it please feel free to leave a comment down below!

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Many blessings with lots of love,
Jeremy Creager

PS. If you share some of the some fears and doubts of your own and feel you might need a mentor to coach you along your journey inward to deepen your healing and growth as you walk your own path of love back to pure innocence, Click Here!

Dec 31

LIST Of Fears And Doubts About Stepping Into My Heart And Soul Vocation

By Jeremy Creager | Notes from My Journal

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(Journal Disclaimer: This is past writings from my personal journaling that I am sharing with you here on my blog, so I may or may not be in the same place/space as I was back then when I wrote it and most likely have done lots of deep healing and growth from then till present day.

I share to offer inspiration for your own journeys as well as to witness the healing, growth and progress within myself, also to be seen, heard, felt and loved in my openness and vulnerability, as well as practicing improvements in my writing abilities… Thank you for your love and support.)

 

~ My Journaling Notes from Sunday 2/11/2014

Lists of Fears and Doubts About Stepping Into My Heart And Soul Vocation:

that I won’t succeed,

that I don’t know what it is.

that I will think its one thing, but I won’t stick with it.

that I won’t have the lifestyle I think I want.

that I won’t make money, or enough to thrive.

that I am not ready now.

that I will have to, need to give up so much that I have been working on, working for, building.

that I will have to let go of so much of what I have invested so much of my time money and energy into over the years.

that I don’t know what I have to do, what I want to be, what I want to offer.

that I might be poor, broke and unhappy trying to discover what my vocation is and how to thrive at it.

that everyone will laugh at me, not belief in me.

that (at least in the transition) I won’t be able to afford certain bills or costs of living, or to keep certain business expense going.

that I will have to give up and let go of some of the business relationships and agreements I have made and have been building over the years.

that I will have to ask my mom if I can live at her house for a while until I get my shit together again, and that it will take to long to get up and running.

or that I won’t have anywhere to go.

that I don’t know the best strategy and plan of action to get things rolling.

that I don’t have enough support.

that I don’t have enough options, opportunities, recourses or help.

that I don’t have enough will power to stick with it.

that I don’t have enough desire or inspiration to keep going.

that the world is not ready for me, for my gifts and for my greatness I have to offer.

that I might end up homeless.

that I am not ready.

that I don’t yet know enough to offer to others

that I don’t have enough or the right trainings or certifications required.

that I am not an expert at anything.

that people won’t want to pay me.

that I have worked to hard at my old life that I don’t want to give it up.

that I won’t be loved, excepted and appreciated.

that my ego will get in the way.

that I have to many fears and doubts.

that I think about lack, scarcity and not having or being enough.

that I don’t know what to create.

that I am already to tired and burnt out.

that I don’t have the answers.

that I can’t bring the solutions.

that I won’t be a good teacher.

that I am not a good healer.

that I have to many dark shadows.

that my A.D.D. will not let me stay focused.

that I will get sidetracked and not follow through.

that I am, and its all that I can be, but it will never be enough.

And that my fears and doubts are endless and can go on and on.

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Note: (I know that “Fear” is False Evidence Appearing Real) and so all of the above is not true, yet at some level feels real.

Thanks for reading and many blessings on your path through your own fears and doubts,

Jeremy Creager

PS. If you are seeking a mentor for guidance through your fears and doubts, some of the best I know are found here: Find Your Womb or Hara Mentor

Dec 28

Recently I Was Asked By A Woman If I Was Looking For OM’s

By Jeremy Creager | Notes from My Journal

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(Image above is from this Site)

To Om or not to Om, that is the (or was my) question…

Note: I am not posting this to bash on anyone or to wrong or talk down on anyone or this community I talk about, but I am only sharing my experience that I personally had, and I wish the community and people well in there process and journey in life and honor it perfect as it is for those who walk that path, I trust it serves them well and may even serve you the ready of this post if its where your at in life and calls to you, and if not there maybe another option for you below.

(Image below is from the OM website)

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(Journal Disclaimer: This is past writings from my personal journaling that I am sharing with you here on my blog, so I may or may not be in the same place/space as I was back then when I wrote it and most likely have done lots of deep healing and growth from then till present day.

I share to offer inspiration for your own journeys as well as to witness the healing, growth and progress within myself, also to be seen, heard, felt and loved in my openness and vulnerability, as well as practicing improvements in my writing abilities… Thank you for your love and support.)

~ My Journaling Notes from Sunday 12/29/2013

Jeremy Dylan Creager

Recently I was asked by a woman if I was looking for OMs…

How would I know if I was looking for OMs?
What space would I need to be in to be looking for OMs?

Well I am bad with time frame, but I think its been about a year to a year and a half from my separation/divorce with my ex wife, 3 years married and 6 years in relationship.

Shortly after that brake up I was invited by a friend of mine to attend for her first time also, what’s called by the OM Community (or Orgasmic Meditation) a TurnOn (small free intro) event.

Now to each there own, but for me, it was interesting and I feel I was a bit seduced by the community, tricky and pushy sales tactics, into going to a few more of their events and workshops.

Long story short I was not feeling it and even backed out of a event I paid for with a non refundable policy so I donated the money I invested into it to someone anyone else that resonated with the work more at the time.

Timing for me just was not right, 5 to 10 years back for me would have been perfect.

Well a few nights ago I got a random sales call by one of the OM guys that did what I feel was a hard sale with fear of loss tactics (I have been a marketer for years so I look for that stuff) of a good deal to save a few hundred dollars, so once again I gave (and take responsibility for my actions) them more money to the same workshop that I backed out of once before, The Ignited Man 3 day workshop.

Now I am a Personal Growth Junkie and am happy to face my fears, but as the next day went by I kept pondering what did I get myself into again?

With the savings it was not a lot of money but still I was not feeling it, so I sent a text to the guy that sold me this time on the workshop and said; Hey where would I go to find out more about the ignited man workshop and how would I know if its right for me or not?

And all he really sent me was to links, one to a real short video:

…and a link to a short page on there website.

That gave me almost nothing, so I sent a message to a friend/mentor on Facebook and asked him if he new of the OM Community and if he had any feedback on the energy of the work or not…

also I said; I want to keep myself in alignment the best I can with the work I’m doing with you guys. I think partly I’m looking into the OM community just for community connection although I’ve had feelings of not feeling safe to be as VULNERABLE as I’d like to around them or the container’s not as sacred as I’m desiring…

So I’m not sure if their practice is in enough alignment with my journey around sex and sexuality at this stage in my life, but maybe it would be good for me.

And my friend/mentor said to me;
Close your eyes, take a few deep breaths and connect with that incredibly pure place in your heart that longs for union in love with the feminine – let this frequency percolate in you for a few minutes so you can really recognize it.

Now feel into the OM energy – and see what this feels like.

Don’t think about it, just feel it.

And let me know what you feel.

This is a very important exercise for you.

There is no right or wrong by the way, just an exercise in discernment …

love, friend/mentor

 

So I did that process and this is what I felt:

My longing for union in love with the feminine, feels pure, soft, loving, clean, healing, peaceful, Divine, safe, high vibrational frequency, destiny, whole and complete, joyful, nurturing, honoring, and beautiful.

Now feeling into the OM energy feels like; deceitful, lustful, covert, lower vibrational frequency, exciting, manipulating, seducing, seductive, dark shadows, unsafe, shallow, trickster, playful, interesting, playful dark magic, and fear.

(Note: What my friend/mentor shared with me next was beautify and I love it and deeply resonate with it so maybe he can share it in the comments below. as I don’t feel I would do it justice to put it in my own words)

But I will give it a shot!

He said, in my own words; yes I am right on the money, and sex without love is not that path that I truly want to be on, without a heart to heart deep soul connection sex is just a fix that we feed our egos on and will not move us forward into the next evolutionary path that our hearts dream of, that our souls are meant for and our God given birthright to live now with love, pure lovemaking with our beloved in Divine Union.

And back to the original question if I am looking for OMs, no I am not. Well maybe the shadow me is, but not the deeper I AM.

So I sent in a email and requested a full refund and backed out of the workshop once again.

I look at some of the people on fb that are in the OM Community and I feel a deep sadness for them, a blind lost.

A perfection and honoring for there own path and life journey, and for me even a old me self that wants to slid in there and play with the darkness because my ego does not want to let go BUT I am destined for divine union and ‘Love Is A Leap’ so I am jumping into the unknown because I know my twin soul is waiting for me now.

Now I have more clarity and discernment to help me move through more of my dark shadows and cold desires.

Thank you Beloved friends of my community for your love and support. Thank you for your guidance and love. Thank you for your mentorship and friendship. You all mean a great deal to me.

 

To see if OMing is right for you then Google it and check it out.

And if you are not feeling the OM community and want to drop deeper into your own Love & Innocence <— go there!

Many Blessings on your perfect path in life,
Jeremy Creager

 

PS. I welcome your comments and shares and invite you to connect with me on facebook here: JeremyFanPage.com

 

Dec 27

Quotes ~ Little Bits And Pieces From The Movie: Kate & Leopold

By Jeremy Creager | Notes from My Journal , Relationships

(Journal Disclaimer: This is past writings from my personal journaling that I am sharing with you here on my blog, so I may or may not be in the same place/space as I was back then when I wrote it and most likely have done lots of deep healing and growth from then till present day.

I share to offer inspiration for your own journeys as well as to witness the healing, growth and progress within myself, also to be seen, heard, felt and loved in my openness and vulnerability, as well as practicing improvements in my writing abilities… Thank you for your love and support.)

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My Journaling Notes from Sunday 12-29-2013
Jeremy Dylan Creager

One of my mentors, Azra recommended a movie for me to watch: “watch the movie Kate and Leopold – a little cheesy in moments, but there is an essence in Leopold that you will appreciate”.

…and so I did and I took notes that I wanted to share with you all.

Enjoy!
Quotes, little bits and pieces, from Kate & Leopold movie: (really just from Leopold)

“Give me your hand, your hand woman!”

Marriage is the promise of eternal love, as a man of honor I cannot promise eternally what I have not felt momentarily.

We are not courting and if we were I would have informed you of my intentions in writing.

Give me your hand, your hand women.

Everything plays a fast to you… Women respond to sincerity, this requires pulling ones tung from ones cheek, no one wants to be romanced by a buffoon.

You’re elating calculations upon comedy, the point is to keep the ball in your court.

Think of pleasing her, not vexing her.

Perhaps Kate resists on moral grounds… Some feel that to court a women in ones employ is nothing more then a serpentine effort to transform a lady into a whore.

Dearest Catherine, 
I behaved as an imbecile last night, and I made it in part by drink, in part by your beauty, and in part by my own foolish pride. And for that, I am profoundly sorry. Please accept as a gesture of apology, a private dinner on the rooftop tonight at eight’o clock. 
Yours truly 
Leopold

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Love is a leap.

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Brave is simple, those with the clearest vision of what is before them. Glory and danger alike and not withstanding go out to meet it.

When one finds oneself participating in an endeavor entirely without merit, one withdraws.

What has happened to the world? You have every convenience, every comfort yet no time for integrity.

…More of his essence was in his presence not in the words of my notes, but I liked those enough to write down and share with you all.

Many Blessings,
Jeremy Creager
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Dec 27

To The Pure Precious White Dove You Are Loved!

By Jeremy Creager | Relationships

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Have I told you yet that I am captivated by your beauty?

Your deep presence is mesmerizing to me…

A stillness in your soul I see in your eyes that takes me by surprise…

I long to breathe face-to-face eye gazing deeply with every breath we take uniting in a love space that cannot be denied…

I wish to know all your shadows so that I may offer to hold them all within love…

I love the joy and aliveness I see in you dear be loved…

Witnessing your innocence is a great gift I hold in honoring you, like a pure precious white dove…

Such a lovely smile you have, has me wanting to know and hear your laughter too…

Any what if anything could I do to bring more smiles, laughter, joy and love to you?

I wonder what you wonder and ponder about when you look within and out into the universe for the mysteries of your heart to be fulfilled…

When you gaze upon the beauty of mother earth I wish to know the love you feel inside as your breath is swept away by the profoundness of life…

I see no separation of the Divine from that witch is you and the beautiful nature of Gaia you sit on top of, in front of, in-between and behind…

I see the visionary in you when you look up into the sky, you bring hope, love and gratitude from with-in-side…

I give thanks for your grace and bravery in shining so bright as the stars at night that light up the dark sky…

Loving your sweetness that protects all you hold close in your heart till the end of time…

Did I say your beautiful in my eyes, well you are but I meant I would still see your beauty even if I was blind and I could not see the outline of your lips when you smile or your eyelashes that attract one to the twinkles in your eyes that lead to the gateway of your soul and the reflection of mine.

There is nothing I need to get from you, I only desired to shine and shower my love and light upon you like the sun offering warmth to awaken all the cold corners of the night…

If you called, I would be here to hold sacred safe space for anytime you wished to close your eyes, to let go and be completely free in the arms of a loving and un-perfect Grail Knight…

With no expectations I am full of appreciation for your presence, for my expression and of this Divine session of whatever life lesson is given through this blessing of our connection…

Thank you for being beautiful, thank you for loving me,

Blessings,
Jeremy Creager
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PS. Thanks for reading :) and hope you liked it!

Dec 26

To my Divine Partner – Sacred Union – My Deep Longing For The Feminine

By Jeremy Creager | Notes from My Journal , Relationships , Sexuality Awareness , Shadow Work

(Disclaimer: This is past writings from my personal journaling that I am sharing with you here on my blog, so I may or may not be in the same place/space as I was back then when I wrote it and most likely have done lots of deep healing and growth from then till present day.

I share to offer inspiration for your own journeys as well as to witness the healing, growth and progress within myself, also to be seen, heard, felt and loved in my openness and vulnerability, as well as practicing improvements in my writing abilities… Thank you for your love and support.)

(Image below was found on this site!)

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My Journaling Notes from Friday 12-27-2013

My dear beloved oh how it has been a journey…
Each and every day I long for you…
Some days are better then others…
Life brings me ups and downs…
Emotions of all sorts comes and goes like waves…

I may not have always known it, but I have been searching for you all my life.
I know the truth that you are already with me and we are one, yet I drive myself crazy sometimes looking within every pretty women to see if your there.

I scan each room I enter looking for you. I wait to meet you in the women (in every woman I have ever met) that can really meet me deep enough to melt our souls into one again.

In my longing for Divine Union I have lusted over many beautiful women, I have paid for Tantric “spiritual massages with happy endings” bodywork, I have jacked-off to porn off and on for years, I have paid for sex multiple times.

I have seduced women with my charm into having sex with me thinking I’m doing it with a kind (really just wounded) heart, I have tricked past lovers into creating circle relationships all in the name of love, I have attracted friends with benefits, I have attended many sexuality workshops looking for a, the connections that would lead me to you.

I feel lost, desperate and weak at times.
I struggle with self-discipline and feel out of control sometimes with my sexual energy and desires. My shadow side wants to just settle with “getting laid”.

For Example: Hitting on the cute young women at the coffee stand that I go to in the morning dose not feel right as I know they are not my twin flame, just by looking into there eyes, as pretty as they are. My drive to sleep with them is not pure or with pure love.
Paying for sex seems the easiest for my ego, but feels in the least alignment for Divine Union attraction work.
Finding a “friend with benefits” also does not feel so sacred either. Even with a soul/friend/mate that knows we are not twin flames and wants only a non-sexual friendship.

I want to remain open in love and not closed off to having sex and making love, I want it to be sacred and Divine.

I have been a very sexual and open person most of my life.

Yet I also have a dark shadow side I am working on bringing more light to.

This is why I am sharing this, because as I work on opening up my heart more and more, I get waves of sexual desires that hit every few days or for many days on end even.

Dear Divine Lover,
please support me…
please send me your love and strength so I may be strong…
my heart cry’s in pain and I feel even sadder knowing you can also feel the pain in my heart as well.
I am here ready for you and your unconditional love you have for all of me.
The front of my heart space feels so heavy with deep pain and sadness.
I want to be strong for you.
My love I long to hold you and to be in your arms…
I long for your softness, your joy, your beauty and compassion…
you are my Angel, my Divine light, and I thank you for blessing me with your healing halos that cleanse my space…
I long for our sacred connection into the deep pure love that we are…

I pray that you are all right, that you are OK, that all is well with you. I pray that we will know each other without a doubt when we look into each other’s eyes, when we feel our energy fields collide in physical space.

 

I pray that your heart does not hurt like mine dose…

I pray you are full of joy and loving life to the fullest…

I pray that you lose yourself in music and dance…

I pray you enjoy the beauty of mother earth as often as you can.

I want you to know I have amazing people in my life helping me in opening into more love so that we will reunite soon in this lifetime.

 

People like Azra Bertrand and Seren Swannesha Bertrand, like JahSun White Eagle Martini and his family, and so many others/mentors/supporters/other participants of the Womb Awakening journey’s, as well as many other family and friends that hold us in the highest light of love.

I feel so blessed. I feel so loved.

I know my work in healing may not ever end like piling many layers of an onion in order to get to the heart of pure love, but I wonder how much of the pain I do feel in my heart is just longing for you, for Divine Union and Sacred Feminine Partnership with my Twin Soul.

I know I also feel more anger and rage in my heart space and sadness I need to still work on, but still, I can feel a whole new level of my heart being cracked open when in your presence, and I will work on as much as I can for however long it takes, no matter what.

How much of this heart pain is just my longing for you Divine Twin Soul, how much is from my hunger to be in Sacred Union again?

Thank you all for reading, for your love and support!

Many blessings,
Jeremy Dylan Creager

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Dec 25

Tear-The-House Down Primal Screams

By Jeremy Creager | Jeremy Creager , Notes from My Journal , Personal Growth , Shadow Work

(Disclaimer: This is past writings from my personal journaling that I am sharing with you here on my blog, so I may or may not be in the same place/space as I was back then when I wrote it and most likely have done lots of deep healing and growth from then till present day.

I share to offer inspiration for your own journeys as well as to witness the healing, growth and progress within myself, also to be seen, heard, felt and loved in my openness and vulnerability, as well as practicing improvements in my writing abilities… Thank you for your love and support.)

(Image below was found at this Site)

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My Journal Notes from December 9, 2013

Jeremy Dylan Creager

I have done a tear-the-house down primal scream a few times in the last few months, one even out at the beach at the break of dawn right as the sun was about to come up.

I look forward to the next time I make the safe time and place to do it again and go deeper and deeper into my anger and rage.

As I find it so rewarding to release and let go of all that energy I did not even know I have stuffed deep down there hiding from myself and the world.

Hiding behind the masks of showing everyone that I am alright and that I am such a happy person, when instead I have been living a lie for so long.

I am now just beginning to get to know my true self and remembering who I truly am.

It has been hard for me to reach my grief and feel my sadness, but this is a way I have found to get there.

Only thing is when I play full out I tend to loose my voice for a few days after but it always comes back and I also become lighter energetically.

I become brighter and my space is cleaner each time.

I feel I have so much more to release and let go of, meaning I can’t wait to see who I am when I find all of the love within me is and becomes all of me.

I VOTE MY VICTORY!
I VOTE ALL OF YOUR VICTORY’S!!!

Thanks for loving me, I love you back.

Thanks for supporting me, I am here to support you back.

 

Questions for your own journey:
In what constructive ways do you release your anger?
Do you create safe time and space to express your rage?
What is your anger and rage from at its core?

If you want to find a Mentor to help you process your anger and rage and other emotions stuck in your body, then go here: Hara/Womb Awakening Mentors

Many Blessings,
Jeremy Creager

 

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Dec 24

Dropping Down Into My Hara, I Want to Ask For Forgiveness

By Jeremy Creager | Jeremy Creager , Notes from My Journal , Personal Growth

(Disclaimer: This is past writings from my personal journaling that I am sharing with you here on my blog, so I may or may not be in the same place/space as I was back then when I wrote it and most likely have done lots of deep healing and growth from then till present day.

I share to offer inspiration for your own journeys as well as to witness the healing, growth and progress within myself, also to be seen, heard, felt and loved in my openness and vulnerability, as well as practicing improvements in my writing abilities… Thank you for your love and support.)

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Journaling Notes from Wednesday 11/20/2013

Jeremy Dylan Creager

If what I truly want is Divine Sacred Union with my Twin Soul, (yet to paint a picture of what that truly means and feels like to me) would that not mean I need to be celibate until I reunite physically with her again in this life?

And does that also mean I would need to really give up for good my love/hate/lust for Mary Jane and the long relationship I have had with her from the age of 15 (I’m 33 now)? That’s more then half my life partaking this seductive feminine plant.

I am scared I can’t control myself. that I don’t have the discipline and strength to channel my sexual energy when I get horny, and use the energy in a constructive and creative way.

I feel deep sadness, and not worthy in this present moment to have the true love I long for.

I have always loved women and the feminine, “so I thought”, but right now tears are falling from my eyes as I feel shame for lusting over women in a way that has not served me to my fullest potential, in the past.

I was taken off the Womb Apprenticeship program, I think because I am not safe as my intentions are not always pure. Although in the past I have lied to myself and to others saying that I come from a place of love, and that is not always the case. but I want it to be.

As I now at 1:21am in the morning, drop down into my Hara, I want to ask for forgiveness…

Please forgive me for using you (women), for using you for sex, even paying for sex, for watching women in porn being degraded misused and abused, for not honoring you, for disrespecting you, for not loving you fully, for misleading you, for not holding you as sacred and Divine.

I feel shame and not worthy of your love.

Again I ask for your gentle support.

I thank you all.

I feel the back of my heart Chakra is guarded and the front of my heart is heavy soft and to open.

I thinks its almost one and a half years after my separation with my ex wife of 3 years (6 year relationship), I have seen myself look at any pretty women, looking for “the one” in all of them, and if they liked me at all, I would act as if they were the one, unless or until she or the universe proved me wrong or showed me she is not the one.

But until I was clear on that I have lead them and myself on.

All the while still doing what I can to “get sex” from them in the meantime.

I don’t want to do this anymore.

My Hara is now telling me to breathe and take it easy on myself.

I’m sure there is a lot more deeper I can go, but for now this is okay.

Thank you for letting me share and for reading what I have to say.

 

Questions on your journey to ask yourself:
In what ways do you find forgiveness for yourself and others?
What is it that you feel you need to forgive within and to others?

In fear and love,
Jeremy

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